6 Months into our Life on the West Coast

Exactly one year ago, we were on our knees before God praying for direction in the midst of a sense of restlessness and feeling God was calling us out of Calgary. At the time, we were still firmly rooted in our lives in Calgary, having just moved into a newly renovated dream home, both holding steady jobs, and enjoying community at church and with family. One year later life looks completely different and it is hard to believe that so much has happened in a little less than one year. God has been so incredibly faithful! Recounting some amazing highlights, we are so thankful for our two precious months at CRASH Japan, the opportunity to move to Vancouver and begin our ministry at Pacific Grace MB, reuniting with old friends and family in Vancouver, and now preparing to start our new family as we continue to wait on the Lord in our adoption process.

It has been almost six months since we came to Pacific Grace and we are so thankful to say that we are blessed by a new community of loving, supportive and committed believers, who thankfully all seem to share our love of good eating and provide no shortage of food-related church events! Keith is the English pastor over a congregation of about sixty people with a large number of high school and university students and a handful of young adults and young families. As expected (for those of us familiar with the Chinese church), Pastor Keith is a jack of all trades in the ministry, doing everything from preaching regularly, leading small groups, teaching Sunday School, vision planning, counseling, discipling, worship leading, and financial budgeting. It has been such a joy for me to watch him serve and grow while making an obvious connection with the people around him, especially the youth. Between the two of us, we are currently a part of each group from junior high, senior high, university, to young adults and adults, which keeps our weekends quite busy as you can imagine! Still, we are so thankful for each individual in our community, for the opportunity to know each person and love them the way God has called us to and to learn from them the things God shows us. Not to mention it is fun getting to know everyone and getting to do it together

As a “Ce Mo” (pastor’s wife), I’ve had the opportunity to serve alongside others in Sunday school teaching and leading a group of grade 9 girls where I get to re-experience the ups and downs of being a 14-year old girl again Beyond the joys, there are obvious challenges in ministry where the immensely rewarding experience of building into peoples’ is also what makes it such a great weight and responsibility. But the sum of our experiences and relationships so far have really affirmed for us that God has placed us here for His purpose and we are grateful to be in the center of that.  Please continue to pray for us but especially Keith as he leads this congregation so that he may have great wisdom, faith, strength, sensitivity, and above all love.

Beyond our church community, we’ve been blessed to have the support of extended family and friends who have made the transition better than we could have imagined. We are so thankful to have Jim and Freda and the kids, several cousins on both sides (so many so that we were able to create a co-ed soccer team made up of 80% cousins), and aunts who care for us with good food as is the Chinese way Living in Yaletown, we’ve been further blessed by the absolute abundance and never ending supply of amazing food and activities in the heart of this beautiful city all of which is pretty much within walking and biking distance.

The transition to Vancouver has been a blessing in other ways as well. After spending the first few months getting set up with all my new doctors (4 out of 5 of which are right here within walking distance – praise God!) my most recent tests have come back with marked improvement from last spring. I have been feeling much better since last year’s tremendously cold winter back home and am enjoying the fact that it is early February and it looks like summer outside. God has also been gracious in providing me with continued work with CRASH Japan that I was able to do remotely from Vancouver as well as a couple other law-related contracts I have been working on. I am currently  transferring my license to practice in BC which means I’m back to student-mode for now. Please continue to pray for guidance and direction for my work as I try to find the right balance between my work, health and future time management with the adoption process moving along.

While we are so thankful for the smooth transition, we miss all of you back home so very much. It was so much fun to hang out with you guys back home who came to Vancouver (mom, dad, Cayla, Clagnes, Sharon, Mel, Keith’s mom and dad, JT, Hoyee and Nick, Sherwin and Joy, and Dave, Dave, Dave who came 3 times so deserves 3 mentions)! We really hope to see more of you. You always have a couch to crash on if needed (For full disclosure, I should probably state that it is Carman’s old couch though!) We will be home to visit in July for Emily and James’ wedding in mid-July but if any of you come out before then, we’ll promise to take you somewhere fabulous for good eats

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June and July 2011 at Tokyo headquarters of CRASH Japan

Originally, I had hoped to blog about Japan on a weekly basis. After how long it took me to write my first blog entry, I modified that to monthly basis. After a month had flown by at CRASH and I still had not found time to sit down and write, I once again modified that plan and decided to blog during our last week as sort of a Finale blog. There is no way of turning back time at this point nor is my memory sufficient enough to retroactively blog on a weekly or monthly basis…so I’ve decided to do a top 5 list Letterman style instead! Top 5 things I loved about our June and July 2011 in Japan in no particular order (…drumroll):

5. Awesome people. Some people you meet and you just know it’s going to be a fun ride. We met Ramona on our first day at CRASH and went on to spend hours together working, eating, stressing, laughing, and more eating together. Actually, it was more like Keith and I ate while she watched in amazement at the fact that we were still eating…Ramona’s story is awesome. She is originally from Illinois but has been in Japan for 19 years and worked in the finance industry right up until before the earthquake hit. When the earthquake hit, she packed up her bags and got on the first flight she could, which landed her in LA. She left abruptly despite her life, her ministry (she was the substitute teaching leader for BSF in Tokyo for several years) and everything being in Japan. While in the US, God called her to return to Japan. He moved her to see that this is the time to be in Japan for Him. And so she returned and ended up CRASH! She is one of many selfless and passionate volunteers whom God has brought to serve Him at CRASH during this crucial time. Ramona’s story is unique yet many others we met had similar stories of God calling them out of various backgrounds to be a part of His restorative work in Japan. Some from within Japan and others from the US, Europe, Canada and beyond. It was so interesting to hear peoples’ stories and humbling to meet so many people actively living out their faith and obedience in God at CRASH.

4. Northern Japan trip. During our last week in Japan, we had a chance to join a work team to Ichinoseki, one of the 5 bases operated by CRASH. There were 7 of us from headquarters and a group of students from Campus Crusade in the US. About 18 of us helped to clean out a lady’s garden that had been affected by the disaster. We had the privilege of meeting this 80 year old lady who walked half an hour to bring the team drinks and refreshments. She told us the story of how her daughter in law drove up to the property to pick up things in preparation for the tsunami but tragically died nearby where they found her body by the parked car. We were working right by this area. We also met one of the CRASH volunteer base leaders who had grown up in the town of Rikuzentakata, where our work site was located, and listened as she told us where she attended school and where she had lost many family members to the tsunami. We drove for kilometers and kilometers barely seeing anything but devastated land, never ending piles of garbage towering over surrounding machinery.         

It was clear to me that there is still a long road to recovery ahead. It is the goal of the Japanese government to place all those who have lost their homes into temporary housing by the fall and there are many people going to the various volunteer centres of these affected areas to lend a hand each day but it is a tremendous task that is and will no doubt continue to test the strength of this country. The Japanese people are strong, proud and determined and they seem unified as a country in their desire to move forward in recovery, which is admirable for all of us watching. Yet I am certain that the enormity of this challenge is not lost on anyone. For me, this experience certainly reminded me and put into perspective how small we really are in the scheme of God’s entire creation and how much we need Him when there is so little truly in our control.

There was actually a news article written in Tokyo’s equivalent of the Wall Street Journal about overseas students volunteering in northern Japan, which featured several members from the team we worked alongside. Here is the link to the article: Nikkei article

3. Exploring Tokyo, Hiroshima, Osaka, and Yokohama. Although we spent 2 months in Tokyo, by the time we left we really felt that we had only touched the surface of the city. There are virtually endless areas in Tokyo that you could spend all day exploring, each with their own distinct character and unique offerings of cafes, shopping, historical beauty and architecture, and of course food! Some of our favourite areas were Kichijoji (hip boho area with great shopping and cafes plus a sweet park); Harajuku (shopping shopping shopping!) and Daikanyama (relaxed slightly higher end boutiques mixed in with little bars and cafes in an almost maze-like criss crossing of sloped streets). Over a long weekend, we also had a chance to visit Hiroshima and Osaka, both in southern Japan. Definitely a worthwhile visit for both the historical significance and the chance to see another major city in Japan. My main overall obvservation was that the atmosphere seemed more laid back down south and almost had a European feel to some of the streets.

        

2. Food. No explanation needed here. Food in Japan is basically awesome. Here are some pictures of favourites.

        

        

1. Growing in my faith. This was truly an experience of a lifetime that I have been so blessed by. To be a part of an organization whose very existence is to bring God’s restoration into a region where brokenness is evident in both the land and the people was both meaningful and exciting. It was a privilege and an encouragement to be among people who have dedicated their lives to serve others in any and every capacity God has called them to, whether it be pastoral, music, film making, teaching, or secular work to name a few. I learned a lot about how God can use anyone who is truly willing to serve with an open heart and willingness. The needs at CRASH changed each and everyday and with the different volunteers coming in, some long term (2 months +), some short term (2 weeks), some local and others from overseas, it became very evident that an open, willing and flexible attitude can be used by God in so many different ways and that through that, He can show you things and do things through you that you never imagined or thought yourself capable of!

Keith had an opportunity to share our story during one of the morning devotion sessions at CRASH. He shared how we watched as God changed our hearts this year to begin to say yes more to Him without our own agendas. Once that happened, He was able to speak to us more clearly and lead us down paths that we could not have imagined for ourselves. We have experienced so much blessing through His divine guidance, His endless provision and His loving faithfulness. It has been an exciting, fast paced, sometimes scary and very uncertain past 8 months, yet we would not have it any other way. To watch God lead our every step has been awesome and has helped us to trust more to see how great our God is.

CRASH Japan

End of week one at CRASH Japan in Tokyo. Time to reflect on all that has happened this past whirlwind of a month.

I am so overjoyed and excited as I type this post! Just the fact that I am writing about how God has been so evidently moving sends little goose bumps up my arms. We came to serve in Japan yet as always, we are the ones being humbled and blessed by God.

In January of this year, we began praying and exploring the idea of serving overseas as missionaries. We felt a sense of restlessness and wanted to find out what it would look like to serve as overseas missionaries and what things we need to consider as we decide whether this is where God is leading. Japan was one of the places we considered along with Hong Kong and Taiwan. We exchanged emails with a few missionary organizations, one of which was the C&MA and had coffee with one of Keith’s former profs who turned out to be in charge of training and guiding new missionaries with the C&MA . Following these conversations, we prayed and waited to see how God would lead. In March, 2011, two things happened that led us to decide it was not the best time to serve overseas long term at this point. 1. Our adoption was approved (praise God!) and 2. The earthquake and tsunami hit in Japan, after which we thought, ‘okay, Japan is out.’ Now that I look back, in our natural selfishness and fear, we walked away from the idea of serving in Japan once the earthquake hit and the need actually became greater than ever. Nevertheless, we gradually felt God closing the door on the long term idea and this is when we began exploring the option of serving within Canada. We were however deeply moved by the events of the earthquake in Japan and said to ourselves that if God did not open a door to full time ministry by fall, perhaps we could go serve on a short term basis for 3 months. This conversation never really went beyond the two of us but sat in the back of our minds.

Fast forward less than a month, Keith received a job offer to pastor at Pacific Grace church in Vancouver, which was a bit of a whirlwind itself but we felt that He was leading us to stay in Canada at this time. Merely days after the PG offer came in, Keith received an email from one of the C&MA missionaries who started serving with CRASH after the earthquake. She had been cc-ed on one of the original email exchanges we had back in January about serving in Japan. She said to him, “I know this is a long shot but we need someone to come for 3 months and I remembered that you had expressed an interest in serving in Japan and that you have an accounting background. Would you come to HQ to help for 3 months?” We were pretty much in awe when we received this email! It seemed although God closed the long term door at the moment, He was definitely opening up the short term one. At that point, there was much to consider as we had decided to accept the offer in Vancouver, which meant we had to move our lives west in just a few months. We had both not yet resigned at that time and a number of key things had to fall in place before Japan could even be a possibility. Still, we decided walk until God closed the door. And then God sort of just blew each door wide open. His favour was clearly present in how gracious our employers were and how supportive our families and friends were. He also helped us take care of Nikki (thanks Em!), our house matters, and other important areas of our lives to make this possible.

It took about one month from the time Keith received that email to us landing in Tokyo with our bags packed for 2 months! It has been such an adventure and we feel so overjoyed, humbled and blessed to be here.

As for what CRASH is actually about, it stands for Christian Relief, Assistance, Support and Hope. Prior to the earthquake, it was literally made up of a handful of Christians providing relief assistance around the world. Since the earthquake, it has has grown exponentially and virtually exploded into a network of countless Christians from Japan and all over the world working together to provide assistance to the victims in Japan. Headquarters is in Tokyo and this is where Keith has been helping out as the finance section chief and I have been providing legal counsel. Headquarters alone has around 40 people at any given time and there are long term and short volunteers coming in and out of the doors virtually everyday along with teams of volunteers being sent to the 4 bases in northern Japan every week to bring supplies and minister to the people there. God’s hand is moving here and mobilizing so many volunteers to serve! Although CRASH is moving full speed ahead to develop policies, planning, structure, obtain ngo status, and perform the enormous task of getting that all in place to continue operating effectively, the goal of CRASH is to essentially work itself out of a job and mobilize the Japanese churches to step up to continue the work of ministering to those affected by the earthquake.

The need is so great in Japan still! It is kind of sad to see how the news of Japan has all but died off in N. America and the only thing that makes news nowadays is the nuclear plant while the victims have been almost forgotten. I totally get it because I barely knew what was going on in Japan while we were stil in Calgary. However, being here and being directly involved has helped us see the need is definitely still great and it will be for years to come. Here is the website if you are interested in finding out more about CRASH (www.crashjapan.com).

Week one has come and gone and we have been pretty overwhelmed by God, the people here, the work, and the sheer newness of this all. We are super excited to be here and still wake up some days not believing that we are actually living in Tokyo for these next 2 months! To give a little idea of what life here in Tokyo looks like, we have been staying at a church guesthouse for the first week, a freestanding traditional Japanese house with tatami rooms and futons on the ground. We’re located in a suburb just west of Tokyo called HigashiKurume, about 40 minutes from central Tokyo. We are moving into a family’s house on Monday as they left after the earthquake and have offered their house to be used by volunteers. We walk about 5 minutes to the CRASH headquarters, but often get sidetracked by the endless restaurants, bakeries, convenience stores, and vending machines along the way so it takes us more like an hour at times We work from 9-6 along with all the others at HQ. There are different sections – finance, planning, operations, screening, etc. and the office is divided up into little areas of people but it is pretty much at max capacity most of the time and can get quite chaotic in there (creeper photo of HQ attached!) although we have morning devotions together, which is always a good time of quiet before work. One of the most amazing things for us has been to hear each person’s story of how God brought them to CRASH. Each of us were on different paths prior to the earthquake yet God steered us all in this common direction and now we’re on the same page even though we come from such different backgrounds and experiences. I love seeing this mosaic of believers come together.

Life in Tokyo as a whole seems virtually the same as when we visited last year. There is a sense among the ex pats here who are serving/working in Japan but grew up or have families in N. America that the media has played a very damaging role in exaggerating certain issues while ignoring important ones about actual people, which has led to a lack of response from many North American churches due to fear. Although there are many many volunteers coming, the sense I get is there could be many many more and northern Japan needs help. Please pray for this particular challenge and also for CRASH as it continues to play this crucial role of connecting those who want to serve with those who need help and partnering with the Japanese church and many other international organizations along the way.

Reference point

I was reminded that each of us have a reference point in life. As a Christian, if we allow Christ to be our reference point, He will be whom we place our trust in. He will be whom we gauge ourselves, our decisions, and our lives against. His will is done when He is our reference point.

More often than not, I am my own reference point. What do I feel like doing? Do I love this person because it feels good to do so? Do I hold a grudge because I cannot let go of what he or she did? Do I miss service or bible study or worship practice because I am too tired and too busy and I don’t feel like I’m getting fed? For so many of us it seems, life and all its necessary decisions revolve around what we want, what we feel, what helps us, what gets us further ahead, what is good for us. Me me me and us us us…

“Store your treasures in heaven, where they will never become moth-eaten or rusty and where they will be safe from thieves. Wherever your treasure is, there your heart and thoughts will also be.” Matt 6:20-21

Whatever our reference point is, that is our treasure. That is what we trust in.

Obeying without knowing

Obedience in the Lord seems almost simple at times when we tangibly know and understand exactly where we are headed and we see the end point to which God is leading. When we see the ‘end’, albeit a degree, career, relationship, or any other type of seemingly significant milestone in our lives that requires molding, shaping, and other forms of Godly training, we seem much more capable of understanding the ‘means’, which generally involves willingly submitting to God and trusting through obedience one step at a time. Times when we basically hear directly from God about where He is taking us and what He is doing naturally instill in us an ability to trust and bravely walk forward with that knowledge.

Having said that, this is not really how most of us feel when we contemplate our walks with the Lord, is it? I mean, honestly, how many of us can boldly and honestly say that we know exactly what God is doing right now in our lives and where we are headed and at what point we will reach the ‘end’ so to speak? I will be the first one to say that though I believe in Him in the very depths of my heart and would willingly follow Him to the ends of the earth (as long as there is good Chinese food…yeah, still working on that one), I have not the first idea where He is actually taking me most of the time. There is just more uncertainty and more questioning than full and complete knowledge of His plan to be perfectly honest. Most if not all of the time I spend with God is in walking one step at a time, one day at a time, simply not knowing what the next day brings.

In John 6, Jesus feeds the multitudes with 5 loaves and 2 fish. In the face of his disciples’ initial doubt on how he could accomplish such an insurmountable feat of feeding literally thousands of people with virtually nothing, Jesus doesn’t give them immediate assurance by spilling His whole plan of action to calm their doubts and fears. When I read this passage the other week with fresh eyes, I realized Jesus could very easily have told his doubting disciples right off the bat, “Why do you doubt I can feed these people? I am going to turn these 5 loaves and 2 fish into more than enough food for everyone and you’ll even have leftovers after it is done!” When I read this, I almost wished Jesus could just lay the smack down like that and awaken the disciples from their doubt! The truth is, even if Jesus did reveal his whole plan from the beginning, the disciples would more than likely have responded in the same manner and with just as much doubt!  So rather than spelling out exactly what he was doing, Jesus doesn’t say much in hearing the doubting words of his disciples. One disciple remarks that 2 months wages won’t even cut it and the other who presents the 5 loaves and 2 fish from a little boy expresses doubts that those will get them very far in feeding the multitude. Without directly responding to their doubt, Jesus simply asks the disciples to sit the crowds down, feed them, and then after doing so, to gather all the leftovers so nothing goes to waste. It is while obeying Jesus’ simple commands here that the disciples then find themselves not only with a multitude of full stomachs but filling baskets with leftovers after feeding the multitudes!

Such a simple yet powerful parallel to us today. We are faced with new situations and challenges virtually each and everyday and a choice to obey God or to doubt Him – our very own hungry multitude so to speak. Though we want to believe we would obey God in most situations, the truth of the matter is we tend to respond as the disciples did – with doubt and rationalizations. We tell God our reasons why we don’t think things will work or we present to him what we have but cast immediate doubt on what He can do with it as the disciples did in the face of their challenge. I think most of us can agree this is how we dialogue with God – we often say we follow Him and trust Him, yet we bring our own calculated plans, suggestions, objections and such to the table and we wait to see how God will respond.

And as much as we fervently ask for one loud audible answer to our questions, God doesn’t ‘give it all away’ from the get go. I suppose that telling us exactly what He was doing and where He planned to take us would defeat the purpose of learning to truly trust in faith, and also when I think about it hard enough, eliminate much of the mysterious beauty in how God works. God knows exactly what He is doing and He doesn’t want us to miss out on the subtle opportunities of divine growth and revelation along the way.

His plan from the very beginning is to feed the multitude by stretching the 5 loaves and 2 fish further than anyone could have expected. But His plan for the multitude (and for us) doesn’t require us to know the ‘end’ before it’s time. He simply asks us to obey Him one step at a time. In John 6, that meant obeying Him in seating the multitude down to be fed. It meant not asking so many questions but just doing as Jesus directed. It meant setting aside all doubts and questions on how this task could be accomplished. And it eventually meant obeying through gathering the leftovers and in doing so, learning of God’s mysterious but plentiful provision. Jesus revealed Himself in such a subtle yet powerful way by simply asking the disciples to obey him in the small tasks at hand. Through this obedience, he was able to reveal to them just how far he could provide for them when the task seemed insurmountable.

I find such a sense of relief and comfort in accepting the fact that I don’t need to know what is going on and where I am headed as long as I know I am in God’s hands. I mean the truth of the matter is His ways are so much higher than our ways that even if He revealed His master plan to me, I probably wouldn’t fully grasp it and would struggle to accept it. Rather, He chooses to walk patiently with us, allowing us to walk at a pace in which we actually are capable of learning and seeing God’s hand in our lives. We get to obey one small step at a time and not miss out on the small joys, triumphs, and struggles that constantly draw us to Him. It is a true gift really – being able to obey the Lord in freedom and childlike faith one day at a time.

 

Our mission today

“Paul was a visionary church-starting entrepreneur, who sacrificed dearly to dive into the mess of a culture foreign to him. Those of us currently leading in churches need to prayerfully consider this: Are we raising up a generation of leaders ready to lay down their comfortable lives to dive into the muck of cultural (North) America? Or are we just playing church – developing spiritual dependents who consume the goods off whichever church shelf will ‘feed me’ or ‘puff me up with more knowledge’ or even ‘feel postmodern’?

No longer can we afford to stand on the cliffs high above the cultural mudslide, chastising people for not climbing out of the mess to come up to higher ground. No longer can we feel content throwing our heroic lifelines of propositions intended to save. No longer can we idly sit by, bemoaning change and wishing to turn the clock back to nostalgic days gone by.

No, it is time for Christian leaders, tethered to the lifeline of God’s Spirit and a community of faith, to gather up courage and plunge into the swirling mess of the cultural flow. Just as Paul said he did in Corinth, we too must ‘try to find common ground with everyone so that we might bring them to Christ.’ We must emulate the God that drove right into the sewer of life himself in the body of Jesus. And we must reawaken his dream – God’s dream of swimming this rescue mission on earth through a new Body – the Body of his Church – Christ’s Body re-presented.’

This great mystery of God, re-presenting himself in the world through those who truly trust in him, must come alive through us. This must be the first priority for leadership of the church in a post-Christian world: making the invisible Body visible.”

NO PERFECT PEOPLE ALLOWED, by JOHN BURKE

Samaria

John 4. Jesus stops in the town of Samaria on his way to Galilee. Jesus asks a Samaritan woman for a drink of water. They then have a conversation about spirituality. In an apparent show of subtle disapproval, the disciples ask him why he talked to her…

It is a simple story of a converstion between two people yet not unlike much of the bible, there are so many intricate details in this story that speak volumes to Jesus’ character and in turn our faith. In my mind, the story underlies an attitude of intentionality. It is about being intentional with our choices and not just sitting back and waiting for God to work. It is about having an intentionality that allows God to create encounters and opportunities to live out our faith. It is about choosing to go out of our way in spite of inconvenience and in spite of disapproval in order to show authentic love to those who don’t expect to receive it. It is ultimately about putting ourselves out there.

Here in John 4, it seems to boil down to this: Had Jesus not decided to travel through Samaria on his way, he would not have been present and available to meet anyone out of Samaria. According to my understanding, by going through Samaria, Jesus was going out of his way to get to Galilee. This was not exactly a first choice destination if you will. It could probably be somewhat likened to spending time in small town mid-USA, which at least in my mind, conjures up scenes from the 70′s, with a main street, a post office, and gas station all within a 2-minute drive through the town and a total of 100 people in town none of whom are visible minorities and none of whom have personally known many visible minorities… And in spite of this, Jesus travels here and stops here and in so doing, opens up the possibility of encountering people from Samaria.

This is a call to go out of our way and make ourselves available to encounter those whom the church might not normally go to. At least in the modern Asian church context, which is where most of my personal experiences are drawn from, I can see potential ‘Samaria’s’ in night clubs, bars, friendship circles that involve more ‘alternative’ types and ‘blue collar’ types, single mothers, the homeless, and others who might not normally befriend, and co-workers in some cases depending on the context of your job. Essentially, anyone outside our comfortable church circles. If we never step outside of the church, we will never meet people outside of the church.

Had Jesus not asked the Samaritan woman for water, they would likely not have continued on to have an actual conversation. I should point out that Samaria was a region that most religious Jews of that time would probably have avoided and naturally, most Rabbis would probably not normally have talked to people in this region. Yet there he was not only talking to the Samaritan woman but actually asking her for something and in so doing, humbling himself in a sense. Given her identity as a Samaritan woman and his as a Jewish man, she would not have been the one initiating any type of conversation. It seems she might barely dare to glance his way. Yet Jesus chose to not only talk to her but to ask her for something and allow the tables to be turned so that he was the one who needed something from her.

This is a call out to humble ourselves when we talk to those who don’t know Christ yet. We often approach anyone and everyone outside the church with an attitude of superiority, thinking that we are doing them a favour and that we know so much that they can’t possibly understand. The reality is we are all sinners. That is why we all need Jesus. And the even greater reality is we are all saved by God’s grace and not by our own doing so there really shouldn’t be a whole lot of pride and self righteousness standing between us and the next person. If anything, we should simply be grateful that we know Jesus and humbled in that knowledge. If we don’t have conversations in humility, they will never lead to anything more.

Had Jesus not moved the conversation into the spiritual realm, the Samaritan woman would not have been changed. After Jesus asks the woman for water, she says to him, “You are a Jew and I am a Samaritan woman. How can you ask me for a drink?” What Jesus says next changes the course of this conversation: “If you knew the gift of God and who it is that asks you for a drink, you would have asked Him and He would have given you living water.” Jesus intentionally draws the parallel between drinking actual water and the metaphor of tasting living water. He takes the normal course of a conversation into the spiritual realm. In so doing, He changes her knowledge of Him forever.

Essentially, if we never take the conversation to the next level, it will never go to the next level. This, I find, is the toughest call. The first two, making ourselves available and chaing our attitudes, are seeminly easy and straightforward since they involve our own hearts and minds. In a sense, there is no tangible measure of one’s intentionality and availability in the context of your own mind and your own heart. However, this third call seems to be one of action. It is one of seizing the opportunity and putting ourselves out there. It is about acting on the opportunity that being intentional and showing humility in attitude can bring. So we hang out with old friends and develop new friends in unchurched circles. We open our lives up to them and talk about our daily woes at work, at home and on the news. But then what? I’ve come to realize that this is often where it stops. This is the point at which many of us stay for a long while as we don’t want to break the comfort. We don’t want to be the Christian, the evangelical, the Jesus freak if you will, the killjoy in peoples’ minds. We fear being misunderstood and know that our entire faith is sadly largely misunderstood. The voice somewhere in the back of our minds tells us we are the ones who need to break the misconceptions one by one. The voice never quite gets too loud before it is snuffed out by the laughter that comes from mimicking characters from the latest Judd Apatow movie…..

In reality though, isn’t this the point everything has been building up to? Don’t we make ourselves available and go to places commonly known as untread church waters in order to be open to these forms of dialogues? Don’t we humble ourselves in attitude and open up ourselves to our friends who don’t know Jesus in order to bridge that gap between us and those outside of church in order to be able to dialogue about the one man that signifies the only essential difference between us – Jesus? The call is a simple one but it is a difficult one and one that I wrestle with everyday and will continue to as long as I am human and live with pride and desire for acceptance and approval as we all do. Still, the simple fact remains: If we never take the conversation to the next level, it will never go to the next level.